RaiN of TiMe

"Time cures all" a very popular phrase which comforts most people who are sad. For me, time changes all. More accuratelly, it should be society changes all From elementary school to secondary school until now form six, I notice that I myself hav changed a lot although my friend says a little bit only. The time when I hav changed to another elementary school , I became better in my academic. It may due to teachers' effort as I never get first place before in the class ( if transfer school , i must study in normal class first and aft one year only can go to excellent class). First change in the academic performance. During my life of form one to form three, I realized that I hav a big problem in communication with people who don't know Chinese. I always spoke in Chinese and I was sooo bad in English pronunciation as I didn't use English in my life. However, I didn't mind it as there were still many people who spoke Chinese. Until I met him (Q), he made me realising my problem in communication as he tried to learn Chinese in order to communicate with me. I was touched so much but I hated to be looked down. Therefore, I made my effort to ameliorate my pronunciation and it lived up to my expectation. Thanks him very much although we didn't get together at the end. You are always in my heart. During my life of form four to form five, my personality has changed. I used to be introvert. I seldom talk to people who I first meet even feeling strange. I would b quiet and anticipating to leave the situation. However, aft I transfered school, I commenced to change as there were actually tiny Chinese people. I had to talk in Malay. But due to working with Indonesia people in facial shop, my Malay speaking was quite good. And it is no problem for me. During these period, I hav involved in many competitions and making my events. Some failed some succeeded. It was an open-eye experience for me and I started to be more confident.I started to make friend and capitalize on my rumour to make fun. It must be due to a person --- Q's ex gf or my friend's, (H) whom I admire , gf (C). She is a affectionate, cute, pretty, clever girl. By comparison, her academic performance come up to mine. She is prettier, more affectionate than me. She always has many friends. I had green-eyed with her at tat time and tried to improve myself. Hitherto, I m in form six. I realize that I totally change myself. I become more active and try to unite my classmates. Usually, I won't do it. I try to communicate with teachers in English and sometimes even trifle with the teachers. I nearly become famous among my classmates. Now i try to make friend with seniors. I even bring a chopping board and peeler to school to peel apples ! It is a bit crazy bt funny ! "Time changes all " lieu of "time cures all"... no longer introvert, no longer having communication prob, no longer having complex inferiority ..... I noe I would miss the past me ... But I won't go back !

The Rain of Love or Friendship

It has been five years since I met him.
Our relationship just like a pure friendship.

That is why I m so proud of our friendship because it is rare when a girl can make friend with a boy for such a long time without the disturbance of love.
And I always believe that it is a pure friendship although I cannot deny that I never admire him.

Sometimes, I will feel weird and think that am I not charismatic enough to attract him. It becomes my question on him as my appearance is not bad what. However, I like to keep this pure friendship.

Until recently, when we are chatting, I feel something weird on him. He started to flirt with him. At the first, I thought he was just teasing me as he likes to tease me. As he is my friend, so I feel like don't want to flirt with him. ONLY after 3 days non-stop chatting ( although we are best friend, I seldom chat with him -->hehe ) , we opened a love topic and he seemed to propose to me ( it's just like a joke , that's why I put "seemed" ).

He attempted to test my response whether reject or accept him. I know I admire him. I cannot deny that I don't have feel towards him but it's kinda weird that best friendship change to love. I can accept friend stage change to love but not for best friend. It has been five years I treat him as my best friend and the one who really understands me. The proposal came suddenly and I cannot really give any response so I told him half yes half no in order not to disappointing him.

I knows him very well. If he sure that I will accept him, he sure will propose me soon. He is a bit coward on my opinion, I like a boy who is courageous and able to take challenge although he doesn't know the consequence. Recently there is another friend propose to me as well. I have no feel towards him but he seems like  determined. As I am lazy to reply his boring question ( actually there is no question at all and I really don't know what to reply ), so I don't reply him. After a few days, he gave up.

From the situation , I have known that he is not my cup of tea. He is lack of self confident, courage, humour and patience. I really bek tahan this type of people. However, my best friend acts the same way too. He is not courageous enough. If he can propose to me seriously ( no more joking here ) and show me his determination , my answer will be yes. But I know he won't do that. Mayb he and I don't want to change our FRIENDSHIP ?!

The rain of love is not wonderful as I thought so I will ENJOY the rain of friendship. BFF  ^_^