Our relationship just like a pure friendship.
That is why I m so proud of our friendship because it is rare when a girl can make friend with a boy for such a long time without the disturbance of love.
And I always believe that it is a pure friendship although I cannot deny that I never admire him.
Sometimes, I will feel weird and think that am I not charismatic enough to attract him. It becomes my question on him as my appearance is not bad what. However, I like to keep this pure friendship.
Until recently, when we are chatting, I feel something weird on him. He started to flirt with him. At the first, I thought he was just teasing me as he likes to tease me. As he is my friend, so I feel like don't want to flirt with him. ONLY after 3 days non-stop chatting ( although we are best friend, I seldom chat with him -->hehe ) , we opened a love topic and he seemed to propose to me ( it's just like a joke , that's why I put "seemed" ).
He attempted to test my response whether reject or accept him. I know I admire him. I cannot deny that I don't have feel towards him but it's kinda weird that best friendship change to love. I can accept friend stage change to love but not for best friend. It has been five years I treat him as my best friend and the one who really understands me. The proposal came suddenly and I cannot really give any response so I told him half yes half no in order not to disappointing him.
I knows him very well. If he sure that I will accept him, he sure will propose me soon. He is a bit coward on my opinion, I like a boy who is courageous and able to take challenge although he doesn't know the consequence. Recently there is another friend propose to me as well. I have no feel towards him but he seems like determined. As I am lazy to reply his boring question ( actually there is no question at all and I really don't know what to reply ), so I don't reply him. After a few days, he gave up.
From the situation , I have known that he is not my cup of tea. He is lack of self confident, courage, humour and patience. I really bek tahan this type of people. However, my best friend acts the same way too. He is not courageous enough. If he can propose to me seriously ( no more joking here ) and show me his determination , my answer will be yes. But I know he won't do that. Mayb he and I don't want to change our FRIENDSHIP ?!
